happy birthday, dad!

today is my dad's 60th birthday!!!  besides being an all-around great guy, he is also a wonderful friend, wise teacher, raving fan and constant comedian.

i love you, dad.

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at great pond by mary oliver
at great pond
the sun, rising,
scrapes his orange breast
on the thick pines,
and down tumble
a few orange feathers into
the dark water.
on the far shore
a white bird is standing
like a white candle ---
or a man, in the distance,
in the clasp of some meditation ---
while all around me the lilies
are breaking open again
from the black cave
of the night.
later, i will consider
what i have seen ---
what it could signify ---
what words of adoration i might
make of it, and to do this
i will go indoors to my desk ---
i will sit in my chair ---
i will look back
into the lost morning
in which i am moving, now,
like a swimmer,
so smoothly,
so peacefully,
i am almost the lily ---
almost the bird vanishing over the water
on its sleeves of night.
 
happy birthday, dad <3
 
 

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where does happiness come from?

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i, like many people, can confuse true happiness with that momentary contentment that arises from getting something, achieving something, or doing something.  that passing pleasure that arises from receiving the latest tech gadget, eating a particularly delicious treat, or hearing a compliment from someone you admire.  but things such as these, though pleasurable in their own right, are not true happiness - they are ephemeral joys.

so where the heck does real, true, authentic happiness come from then?  if it doesn't come from gifts, and dinners out, and holiday celebrations?  undeniable happiness comes from connecting with your inner bliss.  have you ever had a moment when you felt like everything in your body, mind and world were aligned in perfect harmony?  you may have felt physically lighter, like a weight had been lifted from your shoulders.  happiness felt effortless, and even though it was a somewhat ordinary day, everything you experienced in that moment felt truly extraordinary.  in that moment, however fleeting, you were tapping into your inner bliss.  that glowing wisdom and clarity that exists within us all.  that "knowing" that everything is and will be ok, even in your darkest moments. 

it's not always an easy thing to find.  so much of our lives are lived on auto-pilot - wake up, go to work, come home, go to bed, repeat.  but bliss doesn't require you to go elsewhere and escape your routine, it asks you to move inward.  and the more you work to align your body and breath to bring mindfulness into your life, the more inexplicably blissful moments you'll cultivate.  look around your world, don't be blind to it.  be kind to yourself.  and be grateful for all your blessings.  your bliss is here and now.

i want to share with you all a poignant poem my dad shared with me earlier this week.

love after love

the time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. eat.
you will love again the stranger who was your self.
give wine. give bread. give back your heart

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
sit. feast on your life.

by derek walcott

meditation prompt for your journal or cushion:

recall a time when you felt connected to your inner bliss.
what did it feel like?
what are some things in your life that offer you glimmers of your bliss?  (for me it's yoga and good conversations with my husband :)

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open heart

craig & me on our wedding day - taken by m2 photography

i give you my heart, fully open.
no strings attached -
unfettered and unencumbered,
vulnerable and fully surrendering.
 
i give you my heart, willingly.
no expectations –
free of walls or rigidity,
boundless and endless.
 
i give you my heart, my love.
nothing held back –
all things for you,
all thoughts of you.

my heart is yours.

(one guess who i wrote that for.  happy valentine's day, baby!)

happy <3 day, mavens!

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i carry your heart song

a big welcome to all the lovely ladies from sits who are stopping by today.  i hope you enjoy your visit, and i look forward to checking out your blogs as well!

something you may not know about me is that i love singing and have been composing songs (for fun) ever since high school.  since i always enjoy learning something new about my fellow bloggers, i thought it would be fun to share one of the songs i've written.

i wrote this song for my sister, hannah, as a christmas gift a few years ago.  the lyrics are adapted from e.e. cumming's poem "i carry your <3" - a favorite of ours. 

i hope you enjoy (and if you don't - please be kind : )

 

original poem by e.e. cummings

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)

i fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

so, mavens, do you have any hobbies or interests that not too many people know about?  i encourage you to share them too!

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